I've decided that since I thoroughly hate my job, am having a hard time coping with some changes that have hit my life and almost nothing is helping except for the almost constant desire to drink, I'm going to take up a hobby. I've been thinking on it for a while and I had a lot of things to choose from. I love to paint and sculpte though I'm not very good at either in my opinion. I love wood working and gardening but I never have the ambition for either. I used to make miniature landscapes for fun but I haven't got the space for that anywhere. I thought of maybe collecting stuffed animals agian but I tend to get out of control with that one. I've decided that I want to start collecting dolls. Porcelain mostly because I have always loved those but also antique dolls and that sort.
I figure between trying to get my life back on track with yoga and meditation and starting a collection that I can truly enjoy I might be able to stop drinking for the most part. I also think that I need a new job to really straighten out my life, something where I'm not slinging chicken guts all night. I think part of my problem is that now I work by myself for six hours a night and I don't handle that very well. When I'm around people during the day I'm fine, the depression is mostly gone and I'm happy but when all I have to listen to for a straight six hours is the soda fountain and my own thoughts it messes with me and I can't have that. It's started to affect my homework agian and I definitely can't have that happening. I have to go to work now though so I'll get back on later and write some more.
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